It's Complicated.

Complicated. This word perfectly describes life. There are so many wonderful aspects of this life we live in, but at the same time there are so many things that can get us down. Therefore, it’s complicated. My joy and comfort in this life is knowing that Christ is constant. His love is so complicated, yet simple at the same time. Simple in knowing that He loves us despite everything we’ve done or will do. Complicated in the fact that He was perfect, yet laid down His life for us in a beautiful exchange. The other part of His love that puts me in a state of awe and wonder is His constant pursuing of my heart and my life to serve and glorify Him. To think that He was perfect, yet chose to take the blame for us is definitely something worth living for Him for. Along with living for Christ comes a realm of things most people don’t oft expect. For example, going through hardships, times of confusion, times of waiting, and times of hitting rock bottom where the only thing we have to cling to is Christ. I feel as though I’ve been in that place of feeling like there was nothing left and where the bottom had fallen out of all the dreams and plans I had. I had family and friends surrounding me during that time, but I felt alone at times. The strangest thing about that time was that I still felt the love of Christ and the comfort of learning how to trust Him more. It was uncomfortable, but it was(and still is) the kind of uncomfortable that brings us closer to Him. Over the past few months I have grown so much in my faith and learning to trust God in EVERY situation. I have loved getting to have a better glimpse into the heart of my Savior and how He is still working in my life and preparing me for the wonderful things that lie ahead.

Recently I made a trip from my school back to the South with a friend. Before we left, her parents prayed for our trip and that we would learn something new about God while we were travelling. And the amazing thing is that I did learn something new. I realized that God is everywhere. Whether I am in a traffic jam, going through endless fields, eating a Wendy’s connected to a gas station, or going through the mountains on the curviest of roads. He is there. I’ve been told this my entire life and thought I believed it, but I experienced it in reality. I’m so thankful for God revealing a little more of His glory.

Thank you, Lord, for this complicated life. I’m thankful for the times of growth and hardship because they bring me closer to you. You are good. You are faithful. You will provide. Let my prayer always be to draw closer to you and to continue to place my trust in you.